I'm my own worst enemy

It was a rough weekend to say the least. I stuck to the diet, but it was soooo hard. The picture above is my fam eating without me (and yes, they all have piles of cheese on thier food). Shelby was running around eating donuts, pizza, chocolate, pretzels, fruit snacks, goldfish, cookies, cheese, reeses peanut butter cups...Pretty much anything and everything that I cant eat for 2 days straight. My family had my favorite dinner last night, foil dinners. Ugh. Gary also got mad at me for complaining and was like, "quit looking at me like I am doing something wrong, all I am doing is eating food". So, needless to say, I am having a hard time right now. Thank goodness I am back at work, its much easier to do this 500 calorie thing when Im not home with all the yummy food everywhere. I havent been in the best mood lately, which is not normal. I am usually very upbeat and happy and generally fun to be around but for the past few days I have just wanted to be by myself and have been very introverted. I dont think its because of the diet, I think its because I worry about everything else in the world - bills, money, kids, etc. - and Gary hasnt been working even close to the amount of hours he usually banks in the summer time. So of course I start to think of the worse case scenarios. I have come to the realization that when I could eat a bunch of crap everyday I felt better about things, so my way of dealing with things has hit a HUGE wall. I guess I should try to see the good in the situation... I am now at 178 from 186 last Monday! Which is AWESOME! And my clothes are fitting better and I am feeling much healthier. Its amazing what 8 pounds can do, especially when you just spent 9 months pregnant and fat. I am still trying to figure out what the good thing about Gary not working much is...

Could people PLEASE learn the difference between a cold and a serious illness????

Ok, today I am annoyed. I got a call from one of Roxy's daycare teachers yesterday (Im not going to mention any names...ROBIN) and she informed me that Roxy was extremely ill, hadnt slept all day and wasnt eating. I told her to give him some FREAKIN tylenol and I would call the doctor. SOO I make an appointment for Roxy to see Ryan (Evans) at 5:30pm and run my butt over to daycare and almost die of heat exhaustion to get the kids to Kaysville before 5:30. AND COME TO FIND OUT....Roxy is TOTALLY fine. I'm not just saying that he was "ok", he was FINE with a bit of a runny nose. UGH. 25 bucks down the drain and a shiz load of stress that was totally unwarranted. If theres anything I learned from my 1st kid, its that you dont run to the dang doctor for every little sniffle because 99 percent of the time is a virus. FREAKIN ROBIN. Oh and an update on the weight loss - - - - Lost 7 pounds so far this week. BOOYAH.

2 more!

Well I got on the scale this morning and was down to 182!!! This is getting hard, I have to admit! Gary and Shelby are eating like kings so its hard to be in a house with so much good food that I cant eat. Yesterday I ate pretty much the same thing that I ate Monday but I ate steak for both lunch and dinner, which I loved! I was way hungry last night so I downed 2 bottles of water and I was good to go! I also ate a large salad for dinner and I found some awesome salad spritzers at Albertsons made by wishbone. They have 1 calorie per spray and are rather tasty! Im gonna keep doing this, I feel great seeing the change everyday!

Lost 2 pounds!!

Hello all! It was somewhat of a rough day yesterday, I am not used to having to eat like 6 times a day. My old habits included not eating hardly anything during the day and then having a large dinner, which clearly was not working for my metabolism. Yesterday was technically day 3 of the hCG shots but day 1 of VLCD. Here's a breakdown of what I ate:

8am- apple

10am - melba toast

1:30pm - green beans and 3 oz chicken

5pm - half an apple

7:30pm - 3 oz ribeye steak and green beans

water intake= approx 1 gallon throughout the day

I was super tired at the end of the day and went to bed at 8:30pm, havent been able to do that in forever! Just a few things that I noticed in my first day: I had to pee all day long, and I mean ALL day. After doing some extensive research on hCG I found that people out there had the best results when they drank as much water as they possibly could (ideally 1 gallon). There were times throughout the day that I got those cravings for food, mainly when I saw someone else eating (no thanks to Gary for eating a crap load of lasagna in front of me). In order to curb the hunger I drank more water and it made me feel much better. I was also given a tip by my aunt: make sure you are getting sufficient fiber so that you dont get constipated. I have those little packets of benefiber that dissolve in water. They are tasteless and colorless, you dont even know they are in your water at all! I slept well last night and woke up feeling a bit hungry this morning. I ate an apple and then was good to go. I weighed myself this morning and could not believe my eyes! I am down to 184!!!!!!!!! Although this is going to be hard (especially since I live with people that eat very yummy things) I am going to stick with it, I am ready to feel good again! Thanks for all the support out there!

HCG starts today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those of you that are not familiar with hCG, I will provide a short explanation: When you get pregnant your body creates a hormone called hCG which allows your fat cells to open up and suck in as much food as possible. This is the storage used to feed the baby for the 9 month period. On the hCG diet you inject the hormone into your body or place drops of the hormone under your tongue for a period of 23-40 days. For the first 3 to 5 weeks you eat a VLCD or very low calorie diet of 500 calories. This diet is very strict and allows for specific portions of food and excludes sugar, carbs and fat. While you are on this VLCD you need to drink TONS of water. What happens is your body lives off of the fat cells tha hCG opens up so you are not hungry and lose weight SUPER fast. You lose an average of 2-3 pounds a day if you stick to the VLCD and take the shots daily!! SOOOOO I started the shots on Saturday and for the first 2 days you eat what you want to get some fat in your body and get ready for the VLCD. Tomorrow I will not be able to eat anything but whats on my list. My current weight is 186, my goal weight is 160. I CAN DO THIS!!!! Stay tuned for a daily update on what I am eating and how much I'm losing...

Rox Tate Larsen
Born March 11, 2009
6 pounds 9 oz
19 inches

Welcome to the world Rox!

Rox was born at 9:39 am on March 11th! He had somewhat of a complicated birth as he aspirated amniotic fluid and his cord was around his neck when they pulled him out with the vacuum extractor. He was not breathing well and was admitted to the NICU where he was intubated and placed on meds for secretions. He didnt like the intubation much and yanked it out on Wednesday night. He was breathing well by that time so the docs decided to leave it out and get him healthy and ready to go home. He spent 3 days in the NICU and came home on Saturday March 14. He is a very well behaved baby, doesnt cry much and when he does its very quiet. He eats every 3 hours and gets up 2 times a night. Shelby isnt such a huge fan of her little brother yet, she is definitly not used to sharing the spotlight. I started back to work on March 23 and am taking little Rox with me until he is old enough to start daycare at Shelby's school. Luckily he is very good at the office, not many people even know he is here and he sleeps for the majority of the day. Shelby is glad to be back at school, she missed her friends and her routine, as did I ;) Things are going well at the Larsen homestead and we are so happy to have Rox with us!

Its Time!!

Well folks, it looks as if the time has come for me to say goodbye to my HUGE belly and hello to my baby boy. I must admit, its kind of sad that I wont be trucking him all over the place with me and he wont be a silent force anymore. This picture is probably the last one that will be taken of a pregnant me in this lifetime so suck it up ;) My family and my life will change forever tomorrow night - which is a great thing but scary in and of itself. I will post pics of new baby Rox when he gets here, wish me luck!

Getting ready for Rox!!!

We are currently in the process of getting the house ready for little Rox, since he is due in under 8 weeks! Shelby has been doing lots of artwork all over the house and so in an effort to curb this habbit, I found tub crayons at Walmart and am trying to train her to only color on the tubby. Shockingly, this is not an overly successful method. We thought that all of the crayons were out of her possession but that little stinker has stashes of hidden writing materials all over the house. She also does her wall art in inconspicuous locations, such as behind door and curtains. We had to put a lock on the midget door between Rox's and her room because she has been decorting his walls also. The smart little bugger somehow jimmied the lock open and got into the room anyway. I havent even figured out how she did it, remains a mystery. We put up the crib, took out all of the toys, put up shelves for the Mr Potato Head collection that Gary has started for Rox and bought a crib mattress with sheets. I am getting more excited as the days pass, but I am a little worried about the baby being born. Its easy when they are inside the tummy. They dont cry, they eat what you eat, no diapers to change, no baths to give and no reason to get mad at the husband for his lack of baby attention (or should i say my perception of his lack of attention). I am trying to get ahead at work so that the time off after the baby is born isnt so stressful, this never works. Maybe I should be focusing on more positive things - like not being freakin fat anymore ;) Yeah right, easier said than done!!!

Exhausted!!

I now have 85 days left until the new baby is here. All I can say is that I am exhausted and so is the rest of my family. Lately I cannot sleep whether its due to being way uncomfortable, having to pee every hour or having insane nightmares/dreams. I think that Christmas and New Years took everything I had left and now there is no more energy. Shelby continues to amaze me every day. She told me that the baby was in Wall-E. The reason that she thinks this is because Wall-E sounds like Belly and we keep telling her the baby is in the belly. Its hillarious to hear her say that the baby is in Wall-E, she truly thinks this is the case and will go get her Wall-E robot and show us. Her newest word is "licious", as in "that choclut is licious". Not everything she eats gets this type of praise, thats for sure. She is also one of the best mess makers known to man. It takes her a matter of minutes to empty every single toy bin in her room, its impressive to say the least. My discipline skills as a mother have drastically gone down hill in the last month. When Shelby is naughty, I really dont care. In all honesty, I dont have the energy to do anything about it, not to mention that if I do get mad I just have to console the child anyway and thats a pain. If she does something really bad I just call Gary upstairs and he takes care of it - terrible parenting, I know, but I just cant do much more right now. I hope everyone had a good Holiday season, my next blog probably wont be until I am ready to pop this kid out and may not be the most positive thing to read ;)