Sunday, March 26, 2006

Set in my ways?

So the burning question lately has been: Am i set in my ways? And the answer is becoming more and more clear to me: YES! After almost 6 years of marriage, 4 years of college and like 8 different jobs I have found that i have never really had any time to be at home and relax or do anything for that matter. I have been focused on one thing: ME. The transition to motherhood has been a very hard one for me, much harder than i had anticipated. And although it has only been 3 weeks since my life has taken a huge turn for change I feel like a different person already. Shelby has forced me to think of something besides myself for the first time in a long time, and i have to admit that i am enjoying the sleepless nights and baby consumed days. I actually have become very engrossed with this child. Just last night I went to the General Young Women's Broadcast with my sister and my mom. I cried after being there for 5 minutes because I missed my baby shelb. If you think about it, I have been with her for about 11 months now, never alone. As I sat and cried I thought to myself how much i was going to struggle when i go back to work in 6 weeks. It will be very hard for me but i am going to enjoy the time i have left with her and make the most of it. Learning to take care of a baby is like learning a new job. It consumes your every thought and feels like something you will never catch on to, until you figure out that you can do it your way and it will still work. Honestly, i still have no clue what i am doing but i act like i do =). I am just glad that i have the support of my family and my friends because without them, i would definitly be lost. More to come....

3 comments:

BHodges said...

who's going to watch the bebe when you go back to work?

Amanda said...

You can bring her down to Craig!! That way maybe he will quit bugging me about trying for a girl!! Amanda

Anonymous said...

lyndee=support.

YAAAAAY. arent you glad you have your snot-nosed sister around?

just a thought.

;)